huh

Just realized a thing....
I always wonder why I did that....
Why I choose another person, after I said to another person that I can not live without her.

All these years this thing haunted me. I have troubles sleeping at night because of this.
All these years, I kept wondering, what will happen, if I didn't choose the path I've taken.
All these years I kept blamming myself, for the indecisive person I am.

This morning I finally realize why I did that.
I was jealous!!! :((

Before I made that decission, I met her at the mcDonald Citraland.
It supposed to be our reunion.
I saw her with her high school boy friend.
I guessed that memory some how recide in my sub conscious.... :((

Years have passed....
I've done my share with another persons....
She has done her share....

Just wondering....
Can we start up fresh???? :-/